Archive for May, 2005

..that what friends are for…

Alhamdulillah finally, Muffins, Sinta and I had come to our senses.
Muffins managed to write an email to both of us, explaining things and
we’re all happy (well at least happy that this is over, but still have
to face our life problems O:) ). So life is back as ussual, it’ll be
akward at first, but InsyaALLAH will be much better soon.. hopefully!

I’ve just had a meeting with a communication specialist and a
writer, he said that writing in the internet should not be longer than
a page, which mean scroll bar are unnecessary, I’m guessing he is
right. But again hey I’m a woman.. I will babble as much as I want, its
my site gitu lho heheh…

This title seems familiar, I
think I’ve written it before here.. its a good phrase anyways. Thanks
to you guys out there who are my dearest friends for the support and
everything, I hope I could return those back as being myself ;)

Newly Updates bloooog….

Wow, its almost a month I haven’t update my blog. I should really
have a certain time to try to write something down. These days has been
hectic, in the office I had to write a user manual for one of my
database programs, not to mention I have to fight my moods to
concentrate on it. At night I had to finish 3 season of QAF DVD series
as soon as possible since someone is waiting for it. Finnally last
friday, I’ve sent it to him, that’s done!

Now, I’m going to write
according to the dates that had happened, its a bit manipulative but
its good to mark the calendar on your right top.

So today and yesterday .. what I did… was..
replying old emails
writing this blog
eat, sleep, watch DVD, watch TV, listened to the radio
hang out with Rena and her friend Nine
took some money for shopping and payed the rent
and the thought of Muffins arises once in a while…
I guess I’ll be giving her up soon…

and tomorrow would be working day… ahhh.. I really need another vacation!!!!

Sitting at the back of a starlet.. niceee….

Morning was cold, luckily the hot water was running. I took a bath and
helped out with breakfast. We packed and took off around 9. I bought a
couple of small snacks from Kartika Sari (a famous Bandung snacks),
since I didn’t have the money. We split up. Erwin and Basir family went
back to bandung for a ride around the city. As for Ucup and Kang Irep
car went home to Bogor. Then we also split up before going into puncak.
It was difficult to stop at Mesjid At-Ta’awun, so we went to my parents
place in ciawi to pray. I got my period so I didn’t pray. I didn’t stay
at home long, so I went back to bogor with Ucup.

At nite, I enjoyed again watching QAF the 2nd season, the only season I
got. It was to ease the feeling, I was still thinking about Muffins.
Slept at 3.

Bandung.. Gambung.. Wedding.. Freezing..

We arrived in Gambung 2.30 in the morning. We were welcomed by Ucup uncle
and aunt which owened the place. The house was in a tea plantation
area, you know how GUNUNG MAS is, all cold and fresh air. It was
freezing, the water was as cold as ice. We slept and woke up around 6.
Uyuy cooked us breakfast, a few of us went to the wedding vowls in the
morning, and at noon we all went to the reception. The weather was
great for sleeping. After eating at the reception, we went back to the
house which was only a few steps away and went all back to sleep. Eva and Qwong went over. I woke up around 2, and made cofee. Uyuy and Tuti made
dinner, I was glad I helped cleaning up, washing up dishes. During that
time I had fun with Rara, she liked to hear all sort of stories. When
she cried, I ussually take her attention by talking to her, she got
used to it. If she could talk at that time, she’ll be very talkative I
think. She’s gonna be a smart girl.

It reminds me a lot a few years ago when I was in university. It was
with the ilkomerz, once a year, we all went to Andri’s Villa and just
gathered, played, and speak our hearts out (alias CURHAT). As ussual
Uyuy would prepare the food, me and the others would just helped out.
Ussually doing the dished would be Ija and the other guys, but since
nowadays, these guys has become husband, so all the kitchen work is
left for girls to do.

Thank GOD it was Friday and Im going elsewhere

As always waking up late again . I woke up and remembered I haven’t wrapped the QAF DVDs.
I wrapped them in a hurry, coz I haven’t taken a bath to prepare to go
to work. I went to the office with a full bag of clothes, the package
and a hand bag with my shoes and jacket in it. Morning in the office
was ussual, open up my email and do some greetings. I planned that day
to cleaned out my email and tried to reply official emails.

I wasn’t in a good mood since Muffins is
still not talking , I buzzed her through Yahoo but she didn’t reply
it. Sinta went to her desk and she was ignored, so I had no chance
after all. I’d rather not face her at all if I will get the silent
treatment.

That was it, the silent treatment , a leathal weapon to ignore people
we don’t like. I’ve recieved the silent treatment since I was in
primary school. I just did one small mistake and they all gave me
silent treatment. That particular treatment, woke me up to be a
stronger person, I analized myself, and learn about a few social rules,
how to make friends and make our friends happy. I learned to be
faithfull to friends. I recall I never used that weapon if I’m upset. I
have another weapon, its avoidance. This weapon, is quite difficult.
The trick is to avoid people you’re most uncomfortable with, but these
people ussualy the one you have loved. If I’m upset to the people I
barely knew, I’d go bizzare infront of them, I will give them
a-few-word treatment, I’d interact with them but only answers their
questions, I’d try to give them second or third chances. Ok back to the
day…

I had lunch alone. In the afternoon, I went and pray, I practically ran
into Muffins, but I did the avoidance weapon. I hardly looked up to
face her, I ran away. It would just hurt too much. I went with Ria.
Btw, this afternoon, A Ilo, Ria and Muffins had invite mostly the
i-chatters to their birthday dinner at Bunaken. I told them i can’t
attend the ocassion because I had to go to bandung, to attend Indra and
Meli’s wedding. I got to Erwin’s Place. Played with Rara and talked
with Tuti. We then went out to Basir and Mba Lida’s place, and meet up
with Ucup, Mela, Uyuy and Irep. Picked up Danang, and off we go to
Bandung. We took the puncak paths. I slept most of the times and of
course tried to take my mind off Muffins, stupid as it is, but I just
can’t help it.

Its my Bro Birthday… Happy Birthday Bugie…!!!!

Oh my GOD.. what I’ve written previously got deleted since I press the
backspace button. Damn!!! Man I have to re-write the whole 5 paragraph. btw, its Bugies’s 22nd birthday!

My day started up late again , last night I finished watching the 3rd
season of QAF and the electricity went out while watching the behind
scene part, that was around 2 in the morning.

In the office, I asked for an advanced to go to the eye doctor after
work. Sinta and I planned to go to the eye doctor and then get our lens
made at the same night, so we tried to find an eye doctor near to the
optical shop. We chose AZRA, and asked Muffins to booked it.

At lunch time, a few of the i-chatters at the office went to visit Mba
Rere at her place, since she just got out of the hospital for her tumor
operation. She looked really well, and had her hopes high, that was a
good sign.

In the afternoon, Sinta took her motorbike, we (Muffins and I) got a
ride with Bu Cho. We met at AZRA, and Sinta went in first, then me,
then I went to the ear doctor (I had my right ear swelling 2 days ago),
then waited again for the presciptions. Muffins waited there patiently,
she was getting this headache but tried to wear it down. She had this
plastic folder with her, I was kindda nosy and asked what is in it, she
edgy teased and said “Rahasia” (Secret), and hold to the folder tight.
I was at my teasy mood, and playfully tried to open it, but she hold it
tight.

Liked planned, after the doctors, we went to Ekalokasari to get our
lens. Fortunately, I didn’t have to get a new one, since this doctor
said that my current lens are valid. It just that my eyes needed a
rest, they need to relax sometimes by just taking of my glasses once in
a while, and soothe my eyes. But anyways, we went to Ekalokasari. Sinta
took her motorbike and we went by ANGKOT. In the 09 ANGKOT, I witnessed
again another pick-pocket thief trick. This time I wasn’t the victim,
but the woman beside me.

It was a ussual ANGKOT, with 2 seat bar facing one another. I was
sitting in the long seat bar, my left side was Muffins, my right side
was the woman, and her right side was one of the thief. The long seat
bar was full, even Muffins was mushed and I had to sit a little bit
forwardly. In the short seat bar, there was one empty seat. There was a
girl in front of me and a man beside her, they were both bringing a big
bag (I think it was empty). I had a bad feeling, and hold my bag tight.
Then the trick happened. The man beside the woman tried to open the
window between them, the woman spontanically look behind her shoulders,
leaving her small purse in front of her in the open. The man infront of
her tried to reach her purse, by covering one of his hand with his big
bag. When the man tried to reach for her purse, I moved forward and
pushed her purse, using my elbow, closer to me. Then I tried to pull
her closer to me, and whispered to her to becareful of her purse. When
that happened, Muffins were pulled to the side of the girl infront of
me, I was quite suprised and tried to warn Muffins by speaking english,
luckily Muffins knew and extra cautous since she had her cellphone in
her pocket. The trick hadn’t succeed, and the girl was upset, so she
stared at me the whole time. I only glanced at her once in a while,
trying not to stare back, I fear she could hypnotized me or something.
Muffins had a topic to talk about, so we were talking. The thiefs got
off at HERO, the driver didn’t want their money, I think he knew they
were thieves. I got shooken up, still scared that I’d be followed or
something, I just prayed to GOD that nothing would happened afterwards.

At Ekalokasari Plaza, Muffins went to the ATM, she was going to ask me
to hold the folder she’s holding, but then took it back because she
said again with an edgy teasing note “eh iya ini Rahasia”. I actually
didn’t want to know whats in it, it would probably her work. After
meeting up with Sinta, and went to the optical store, we had dinner.
After we ate and payed for it, we were sitting there. I was quite in my
teasy mood, I saw Muffins’ folder in the table out infront of her, I
took it and Muffins were trying to reach for it, I moved it to my other
hand, which made Muffins stood up and trying to grab for it. She had
this playfull scream along with her gestures. Sinta took the advantage
and reached for it, it was in Sinta’s hand. So it was like passing the
ball, it was a joke. But it just happened after Sinta tried to pass it
back to me, Muffins just walked out.

I said goodbye to Sinta, and tried to catch the walking Muffins in
front of me, I was holding her folder. I know her a little that she was
upset, I know that it is useless calling her name to wait for me. She
still walking fast infront of me. I was a little upset myself, I mean
it was a small prank, which she too had done many times to other. I was
thinking maybe it wasn’t the right time or something. Anyways, I tried
to hand over the folders, since I thought she might needs it at night
to do her work. She didn’t stop. She took 09 ANGKOT, which thankfully
still stayed in its place since the passangers wasn’t full yet. I went
in (with a traumatic feeling), and gave Muffins her folder. At First
she ignored me, but I told her, “Hey take it”. She took it and had this
straight face. She was really upset, and didn’t care to look at me. So
I went with it, I tried not to look at her. I got off near the
terminal, I didn’t want the freezing moment. I payed and said goodbye.

Sinta smsed me about that she tried calling and smsed Muffins, but
didn’t get any interactions, she didn’t pick up the call or replied the
smses. I’ve been cut off before by Muffins, and I knew that it’ll take
a couple of days to wear of her upset. Anyways, I tried to call her and
sms-ed her and saying sorry what I have done. I was still in shock with
the pick-pocket incident and now had a confused feeling on Muffins.
Whether to be upset too, or should feel a little more guilty about it.
I don’t know. I went home to Rena, and told her everything.

I also had to think about my trip to Bandung, which will be tomorrow
evening. I had to pack my bag, helped by Rena. She told me a technique
to pack clothes in bags is to make rolls of clothes, so more space will
be created. She packed my things, and it was ready. To ease my tension,
I wathed the final part of behind the scenes of QAF, because I had to
send them tommorow.

I aint even keep my cool

I’m going to write about my trip to see Maliq & d’essensials. This
was on Friday, 6th of May 2005. It was at New York Cafe Jakarta (Komp.
Taman Ria Senayan).

this is us Muffins got the information from Maliq’s management, Indra, about their
show in NYC. I was hesitating to go, I was saving up. But then again I
couldn’t resist the temptation of live music, especially Maliq, it was
my everyday music when taking a bath in the morning. It was only the 2
of us, we prepared to go from the office, prayed Magrib and Isya first
at Mesjid Raya Bogor, and then went to the bus terminal to take a bus
to UKI. At UKI we took a taxi and directly go to senayan. I haven’t got
a single clue where NYC is at, the blue bird taxi driver has no idea
too. We got off around senayan, and thought it was somewhere in gate
one, infact we were wrong, we need to go to gate 2. We walked then to
the place.

NYC and Tickets NYC, was a music cafe. Quite similar to Hard Rock Cafe Jakarta (Plaza
Ex). It was two floors. We entered from the second floor, where the
stage could be look upon a balkony. The entrance fee was 35rb for one
person. We had our hand stamped with ultra light ink. Inside the light
was dim, R&B music was quite hard blown, a few people was already
there. Muffins spotted her old colegue at KISI radio and good friend,
Indra pacique. Fortunately he was the MC for the whole event. He
invited us to his table, which was one of the high table, with high
stools. He had his friend along with him, Hakim I recall his name.
Indra wore a kindda rapper suit, with his hair tied into african-curls.
Hakim was quite a cute guy, he wore a cap, he kindda remind me of
jenifer beals . Any who.. the second floor had TV, and a pool table.
A few guys were playing, some girls are cheering them up. Drinks of
course are brought every where. There were a couple of old women in one
table, dressed up all glittery, we suspect they were the owners, since
everyone made an entrance and had the curtesy to say hi.

The stage was in the first floor, the bar was also too, which I didn’t
care. We had our first drink of soda. The music was so loud that
whenever we talked we had to move closer and shout. Muffins and Indra
chatted, since they are old friends. I was just enjoying the R&B
music the DJ had put on. I also looked around and kindda watch other
people. I saw Dewi Sandra, Mario Lawalata, Indra Bekti (I shook hands
with this guy, he was Indra Pacique’s friend, he came to our table and
greet, too bad Muffins were busy taking pictures of the first
performance with Rena’s camera), Dina Olivia, and some other people.

da geronimo The whole event was launching the new motto for NYC, with sponsored by
A Mild, Indosat and the others, NYC presents “Soul to Squeeze”. The
motto was “Let the music beat you” something like that I forgot. The
first performance was Da geronimo, they brought very groovy music, most
of were R&B, such as from Usher (my boo, yeah, etc), Jay-Z,
Arrested development etc. It was a blast. Then a few games were thrown
by Pacique. It was funny, the games was shaking booties, this big girl
called herself J-Lo had the most funky move. Maliq was next, it was
around 11 at night when Maliq was on stage. I was still sitting at
Paciques table on the second floor. Pacique and Indra Bekti had
suggested us to go downstairs and on the dance floor and shake those
booties heheh.. At first, Muffins hesistate since we thought it was
crowded and we didn’t have space. The first song was Sunshine. I only
could watch them from one of the TV’s coz the balkony had already been
crowded since the first performance (Which I had to see thru the TV). I
thought to myself if I watched Maliq from this TV too, then it would be
a waste coming to Jakarta and all. So I asked Muffins to go downstairs,
and try to get near the stage. I saw it wasn’t that crowded near the
stage, I could peek and see some spaces beside the stage.

Maliq and the essensials I was right, the right side of the stage was empty. We stood there and
move our bodies to the music. Muffins hold out the camera and capture
some pictures and movies. I really was enjoying myself, we knew most of
the songs, even though we didn’t know most of the words. Angga the lead
singer, sometimes spotted me and I thought we had a moment, singing
along and moving along. All the songs were played, even our favorite
song, “Lil thing“.. The music was awesome, its more living then the one
in the album. They also played other songs beside theirs, such as My
Girl
, September and a few other more. Their performance was great, they
hardly stayed still, especially the singers. Even Dewi Sandra, who were
at the balkony, adored them. We could hear Indra Bekti’s voice shouting
once in a while, in between songs. Near to the end, they went off
stage, and we had to move away from the stage, this is because Indra
Pacique (the MC, Muffins friend) had planned to prank us and was going
to take us on stage with his small games. We definetly didn’t want this
to happen so we were out.

I stood near where the members of Maliqs band took their rest. People
in front of the stage were half gone, either went home maybe because
they thought the event was over, or they were grabbing some drinks. I
kindda couldn’t belive the girls infront of the center stage sang and
moved thru a few of the songs while drinking and smoking, weird and
unhealty. But again its a cafe and bar, so they are allowed to have
that kindda behaviour, it was us who is outta place . I spotted two
other jilbabers beside me and Muffins in there.

Maliq again Any who.. during the last song (we thought it was).. “Ketika” the bonus
song in the album, I pushed Muffins to move more central to the stage,
so we’d be in front of the stage. Muffins hesitate, maybe she’s shy or
something. I wasn’t since I wont be going in here in another million
years. So, I’d be willing to make a fool outta myself . It turns out
we were there infront of the stage, we were 50cm from the stage, noone
had come in between, no one dared or I don’t know. They went all back
on stage and sang an Earth Wind and Fire song.. I forgot the title, but
we moved to the beat. We kindda followed their moves, with bowing, and
moving sideways, well just imitating what they’re doing. It was
Muffins, Me and Pacique, no one dared to go infront of us, I have a
feeling we’re one of the highlights. I didn’t care, I was just having a
good time, and not drunk of course .

It all ended at 2 am. We said our goodbyes to
Pacique and Hakim, and took a taxi back home to Bogor. In the taxi, we
had to be awake coz the driver is also sleepy, we sang Maliq songs over
and over even though we didn’t know all the lyrics. I arrived around 3
am at the kosan.

The next day I had to meet with some guy I’m being matched up by my
family. It wasn’t some guy actually, it was my far uncle. I didn’t
it’ll work. He wasn’t interested in me anyway… well that’s another
story. I’ll tell about it if something else will happen

twenty four… twenty five… twenty six…

Today is Muffins
birthday, I wish her well in everything that she does. I hope all her
dreams comes true and always being blessed by ALLAH SWT. Amien!

Muffins Bday